Lust is more than a feeling, a desire, or an impulse of nature. It’s the foundation for all the animal drives that exist, and sex itself goes to the root and nature of creation. So if you want to understand sex and lust and the impact it has on your life, you’ll have to seriously study yourself and work esoterically, observing yourself very clearly, using dreams, out-of-body experiences, and alchemy.
On his visit to the second level of the inferno, Dante witnesses the souls of those overcome by lust being blown around aimlessly and ceaselessly in a violent whirlwind, representing the power of lust and the lack of self-control.
The complete understanding of lust and sex cannot be found through the mind; the mind itself is composed of sexual energy. To understand sex and lust, you have to be able to go beyond the mind, you have to go into internal worlds, to go deep into the subconscious, and to explore various regions. To see the impact of lust, you have to be able to explore esoterically, to explore things that can’t be seen with physical eyes.
Sexual desires have a profound impact upon the human psyche, greatly affecting the way lives are led. Lust can enslave a person and can make someone completely bound by its powers. It is of course the foundation for family life as well, but it modifies itself in so many different ways, bringing all kinds of variations of sexual energy; all the different sexual desires are all modifications of the same sexual energy that alter from the simple male-female attraction and go in a spiral in other directions as different desires are fed. As they feed, they change and divide, until the original simple desire is greatly modified, eventually becoming so altered it polarizes the other way.
Q: Desire itself seems neither good nor bad, but what it makes you do depending on what is inside of you gives desire its character, correct? Lust and love seem to be two polarities of desire to me if that makes sense. When the desire is selfish it becomes lust, but when it is selfless it becomes love.
In a real sense, good are forces of light, bad are forces of darkness; so it’s things which lead to light or darkness. Essentially, good and bad come from that. I know there are different moral standards, different moral codes and things, but good and bad essentially come from that. So if we take light and then darkness, desire is simply a formation of the creative energies in a way in which attraction takes place. Now to say that it’s good or bad, ok, you can put judgments on it, but you have to actually explore what it does, what light does, what darkness does, and what desire is. You can’t just make a judgment about it based upon the mind—you have to explore these things fully.
Now, the rest of the issue there is whether it is actually something that benefits us ultimately, and lust in itself is not a spiritually beneficial force. The attractive energy is a necessary force, but the multiple egos of lust are modifications of that energy which are to be worked upon and changed so that desire becomes spiritual energy, because the nature of desire is not spiritual—the nature of desire is animal.
So in its nature, it’s not good, it’s not of light. So, it’s not to be judged just upon what it makes a person do, because what desire makes humanity do can be completely outrageous—apart from just reproducing the species which is its intended purpose in nature, it then creates all kinds of modifications of that until you get to really awful manifestations of desire. Now, you might then say, “Well, this part is good”, or, “It’s ok”, or, “We’re just putting judgments on it,” “But there’s just desire”—no, the nature of desire in itself is of darkness, is of negative elements. And if you can explore internally you’ll see this. It’s a completely modified version of sexual energy, which (lust) is of darkness itself. And so in desire or lust then, if someone is in it, they’re in darkness. We take that darkness and convert it into light, which is a completely different energy.
So if something of darkness is inside of us, then that’s going to come out, that’s going to manifest, that’s going to form the character of what one really is. And desire in itself then doesn’t have anything good in its nature in the true spiritual sense, it has just that negative energy. You have to understand what sexual energy really is and what desire really is and what light and darkness are, and you can only know that through inner investigation and exploration. You can’t know it with the mind, you can’t know it by reading about it, or discussing it—you have to explore, you have to find out what it’s really about. And that’s a very difficult job and people run away from that, they don’t want to face it—people are slaves to lust, completely just slaves. So you need to explore properly as to what the nature of the human psyche is to see what’s going on inside properly in the internal worlds. And it takes a lot to do it, you’ve got to explore, not read—then you know the nature of things and how they exist.
Is lust so well disguised that it can make you feel full of positive energy, when it actually just wants you to fulfill its cravings? I feel I was tricked like this.
If you notice when people who are attracted to each other meet, there’s a lot of smiling and pleasantness. Lust actually has an effect on the body, the sexual energies have a huge effect on the brain, the psyche, the hormones, everything, and that can give the impression of happiness and falling in love, but it’s all part of the program of nature. It’s not true happiness.
So watch and explore and try and understand how this disguise works, how lust permeates the psyche and alters it. Watch for the deception of it, because it takes over the psyche, the mind, the brain, heart, and feelings, and it moves the psyche according to its desires and a person becomes puppets of it and is in its control. It’s not easy to work on lust, and it’s not easy to understand it. There are not many people who actually want to study or explore it fully. Lust knocks most out of the work to reach enlightenment, most just cannot handle the work on it. You’ve got to explore really well, otherwise it continues to have a terrible impact upon the psyche—no one can be free with it. In its nature, it’s of darkness, it’s a modified energy of darkness, which is connected through the coccyx bone and goes down into the inferior dimensions (the abyss), the energy then comes back up from the abyss into the psyche via the Kundabuffer—this has a hypnotic effect on the psyche, and this energy permeating the whole psyche enslaves humanity, locks each person down in those zones.
Years ago when I was starting the work on alchemy and had just begun the first mountain, I had to descend to be able to ascend up the mountain, that’s an esoteric law. As part of that process I went out of my body in the solar mental plane of the fifth dimension and explored through the different regions of the earth, down through different zones, and I came to a cave, and in that cave was the root of the egos, which is lust. It is the foundation of every single ego and desire. At the time I felt that I should run away from lust that I couldn’t face it, but that was wrong, I should have stayed and explored it.
At the time I thought you had to run away from lust to be able to understand it. But later as I’d worked on it, I understood that you actually have to fight it. As I’ve said before, you have to declare a war on lust. That’s the only way you’re going to actually beat it. It is a terrible war, one that is so difficult to face, so hard to do, because it goes to the whole nature of what you are. Sometimes when you are going through a test on lust as part of the initiations of the path, you might think you’ve overcome something, that you’re staying away from things here in the three-dimensional world, but then once you go to sleep, in your subconscious—not even in a dream—but in levels of the subconscious you didn’t even know existed, there will be a desire, and that desire is enough to make you fail.
By the way, someone asked can they meditate on egos of lust, reflect on them deeply, and so on. Well, you will end up feeding them like that. Technically you could do it, but in reality you’ll just feed lust because it’s so powerful. It impregnates the mind, and once you activate the mind with those egos, then they overcome it.
Lust takes over the whole of the psyche, so everything that you see and feel is all part of that modified sexual energy. That’s why the human being is so spiritually stuck. Anyone can take information and just regurgitate it—that’s not to understand lust or sex. You have to be able to observe very carefully in daily life, and not to be weak when it comes to understanding or facing it. You’ve got to be very strong and courageous to face lust, and on the path, you’ll go through tests that are severe, really severe.
When you start to face these things it feels as though there’s no way you are going to be able to do it. It just seems completely impossible to get into it, like you just can’t see how a desire can be changed. But it can, and that is due to the power of alchemy. That’s the force that can transform, it takes that desire, and turns it into something spiritual. It turns it from the darkness which is permeating the human psyche into consciousness, into light. Alchemy is the key to this transformation.
It’s a terribly difficult thing to try to face because it tears you apart in every direction. You cannot be passive and understand sex. A celibate can never understand sex, never, because all a celibate is doing is cutting themselves off with one part of the psyche, which is anyway sexual energy, from another, and that sexual energy goes in the subconscious. So beyond the person’s conscious mind these desires are going on, and these desires will then produce dreams of a sexual nature and will produce a distortion of sexual energy, because the energy is never static; it’s alive, it’s life, it’s permeating in everything. And you either modify it and turn it into light, or it has its own direction and it modifies the human being, and it controls the human being. And celibacy is just blindly shutting one’s eyes while the whole of this process is going on in the subconscious—the process of darkness, of enslavement.
Only alchemy and the destruction of the various forms of lust and then control of the substance of sex and lust is the thing that can set a person free. And to understand it you cannot simply use the mind—the mind is part of it. To understand it you’ve got to practice alchemy, you’ve got to explore in the internal worlds, you’ve got to go through the esoteric tests of the path which modify the whole way that the human psyche is formed. And each initiation gained brings its own spiritual quality, and that quality helps in the war against lust. There are paintings and statues of divine beings with swords, you gain a sword internally with the risen Kundalini (when the Kundalini rises the Kundabuffer ends), that sword becomes a weapon against forces of darkness, whoever walks along the path has to fight a war against their internal desires, and none is bigger than lust.
To understand sex and lust requires walking the path, this is how you’re going to properly understand it—not through reading about experiments on the human body, nor by analyzing it, or reading religious scriptures about it.
One night in the Astral plane I met a spiritual Being, one who was helping me along the path. We were on a beach, and I asked him, “What can you tell me about lust?” he held up his hand and then turned it over and opened it, it was full of grains of sand. I understood then that there are so many egos of lust—I was asking about lust as one thing, but there are so many different egos of lust, just like grains of sand.
~ From a talk given by Belsebuub live online in November 2009
