Belsebuub at Nicosia University, Cyprus, 2006
When I was compiling the list of talks from the University of Nicosia in Cyprus in 2006 I missed these two.
They were in my book gazing into the eternal as a single talk, which was as I gave it at the University. But I divided them into two as they were on different subjects and revised them a little.
They are:
Hello Mark,
It has been refreshing to read both of your talks.
Having worked closely with you over the years, I’d like to express that it is thanks to your teachings, I’ve managed to verify The Divine within me.
Regarding your talk on “Being Aware Of The Present Moment and Seeing Within”, I have found that spotting the egos from moment to moment has always been such a difficult journey, not to mention trying to completely remove them from within.
My journey with the death has been mechanical and so didn’t work effectively or I would forget to apply it for long periods of time.
Today, the death is it’s still very difficult but my perception is different, I now love doing it and I see it as a prayer to be a good person (which is my deepest wish). Those changes have made a big difference, and most of all I’ve been able to verity my Divine Mother within.
Your talk on “The Heaven Within” was so inspiring and has given me such a boost. I love the information of the merging of Consciousness with The Spiritual Son.
Thank you John for sharing your experience. I am very inspired by what you said about Death as a prayer to be a good person. I also struggle with this key, forgetting about it for long periods of time. The only times when I remember it on a deeper level are when I really feel sorry for how I behave towards others and sincerely wish to spread more love into the world. It feels so nice and strengthening to be loving and attentive to the needs of others, and yet the egos can find so many righteous reasons why it is not applicable a particular moment. I feel selfishness can mask itself in so many ways, even in “I have an important task for humanity to do now and don’t have time for this” kind of way… .
I hope to reach the stage you’ve described, whereby I would love to apply the inner death and feel closer to the Divine as a consequence.
Hello Belsebuub,
after few years of practicing I built something inside of me that tells me that your teachings are for real. Your books are very precious sources of information that can lead to final awakening. I only regret the time I wasted throughout all those years I know about the teaching. Now I only hope for the inner strength to carry on with awareness, self-observation and other exercises.
There is always something new I discover in your books when I read them again and again, something that helps with understanding of what I am and what I can be.
I hope there will be more people longing for the spiritual awakening and inner change.
Thank you
Jiri
That’s a nice sentiment Jiri, nice to meet you :)
Then I am sorry if it sounds like sentiment. Sentiment sounds to me like a depression and I do not want to bring it here. Next time I will choose my words more carefully.
All the strength to all of you.
Jiri
Hey Jiri,
I think Julian means sentiment as in nice ‘notion’, Not that what you said is sentimental :)
I agree with what you said Mark’s books can be read again and again and something different or more can be gained from it, the same goes for the audio talks available in my opinion.
All the best Jiri!
I meant sentiment as “thoughtful comment”
It’s a different word than ‘sentimental’, which could mean ’emotional’
Hey Jiri,
Just wanted to say the the word “sentiment” has a different meaning in English than in Czech (and Slovak). In English it just simply means an idea/opinion/feeling. So Julian was just saying that the feeling/opinion you expressed was nice. :-)
Cheers
Lucia
Hi Jiri, I don’t think Julian meant the word “sentiment” to have any negative connotation at all in this context.
I think it means more like, “that’s a nice thing to say”, rather than saying you were expressing a bad feeling or anything like that. He was basically agreeing with you. :) And I agree with your original post too!
Justin
Hey Jiri,
Don’t worry, it didn’t sound like depression, sentiment doesn’t mean quite that. It can mean simply
1) a view or opinion that is held or expressed. It’s not always:
2) exaggerated and self-indulgent feelings of tenderness, sadness, or nostalgia.
To be what you send sounded sincere. And encouraging. And I am happy to hear it from you.
OK, I did not know, there is still a lot I have to learn about English. Thanks guys for your explanation.
All the best
Jiri
Great to hear from you Jiri.
Good to hear from you Jiri
Thank you Mark deeply for these articles.
They speak so strong and practical, thank you!
Thank you Mark for this article “To find the Heaven Within”
It came to me the right timing in order to relieve my soul and give “deep” answers
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Thanks so much for these talks Belsebuub – always deep and inspirational.
That’s such and excellent talk (To Find the Heaven Within). Thank you so much for that. It just goes straight to the core; an inspiration to make greater efforts to break free from the pull of mundane life. Thank you!
This is refreshing as I don’t remember reading them in the Gazing book.
One part from the Heaven Within article stood out for me: “It is so difficult to find and the sufferings are so great that it has to be wanted above everything else”. Makes me wonder what other things I “want” in life that take me away from what’s most important.
Exactly. It really makes you take a second look at things and wonder what else there is that needs to be uncovered before you can really move forward. How deep rooted are those other desires and how can we get rid of them ASAP? How can I overcome these things? What am I missing? All those questions.
Although, I’ve been reminded lately about the layers of an onion analogy. As I’ve had many moments recently where something has made sense on a deep level and really moved me, and I’ve asked myself “how did I not get this before?”.
Thank you Belsebuub for sharing with us your insights, trying to really understand your teachings and practice them in life is so important and helps me so much.
It is interesting how you say that there is not enough shared experience about Heaven, and yet it is something so often talked about. And yet, the real ‘living’ experience doesn’t have a common language to be described. The small experiences I have had where I felt immersed in very uplifting qualities were few but always impossible to define – even for myself. They are nothing like having a real heaven within as you describe, but have always left me astounded to the sensations I would be feeling. Not even my physical body could contain the sensations and instead, I would either cry or laugh at the elevating experiences.
Sometimes these moments where I am existing in consciousness, and feel so elevated, I get such a shock. Why do I go back to ego states? Why have I just been in ego states? How could I live for a second without the incoming and outcoming love of consciousness? When these feelings of the consciousness are so supreme, so pure and so real? I feel that’s why, when I have these experiences, I am often left in tears at the shame of how often I live in ego states.
What’s strange though, is that at the same time of feeling so uplifted, and having this wide open invitation to live in a higher way, I am also terribly scared of it. Somewhere here there are clues to breaking free of this strange resistance.
There is a lot of guidance in the following sentence:
”It is so difficult to find and the sufferings are so great that it has to be wanted above everything else, and a substantial esoteric work of transformation has to be done. ”
It would be truly wonderful, to wake up each day, to live each moment, wanting nothing else but the Heaven within.
Wonderful to see this up. Thank you for posting them. It’s interesting what you said about Heaven. Growing up attending a catholic school, it was obviously a term that was used quite a lot, and one that always seemed great as a place to end up. But I always could see this great contradiction around me with the way we all treated one another. I remember feeling like someone had gotten what Jesus was saying fundamentally wrong. I found it so strange that we could just believe in something, treat each other terribly, and still end up in Heaven, safe and sound. I have possibly shared this story before on here somewhere but will again in case I haven’t :) but I remember when I was about 10 or 11 or so, and during a mass we had a chance to go up to the priest and ask a question. I told the priest that given the contradictions I had seen in human behavior that it was much more reasonable to believe in Satan than it was in God, since Satan seemed to share those same contradictions as far as my 10 year old self had understood. The priest just laughed at me, and told me it was a silly thing to think or something like that. That moment was defining for me since it shattered the image that the organized religion and the priests etc included in it, were these authorities on God. Kind of like that moment when you realize your parents don’t know everything :) As silly as my thought may have been, it definitely led me to find that spirituality isn’t just for certain people, or this static thing, which I am very grateful for. So thanks again for posting these articles which give many insights into how to make it happen for ourselves.
That’s a pretty deep thinking for a 10-years old I think, thanks for sharing Vida! It is interesting for me to hear how you, as a small child, were aware of how humans behave towards each-other. I remember crying a lot as a small child, feeling like there wasn’t enough love around me, even though I had quite loving family from the normal standards. But I only felt all this in a kind of self-centered way, I wasn’t really aware of the fact that something was wrong with me as well… So this level of reflection from a small child as you were sounds really special to me.
Funny experience, Vida. Glad it made you think deeper and come to that realization! It’s amazing how easily these deeper questions can be brushed off by conditioned beliefs and figures of authority.
A woman was relating to me once how in growing up as a catholic, after meeting other non-catholics, she asked her mother how there could be certainty that being catholic was the “correct” religious choice and her mother simply replied, “don’t worry, we have the correct religion.” We both chuckled at the absurd certainty in her mother’s reply.
Interesting story Vida, thanks for that.
That’s a good question! My mom told me she lost interest in Catholicism for very similar reasons. She went into church and heard sermons about generosity, giving, etc…, and then the rich people left the church walking by the poor beggars without so much at looking at them. She said the hypocrisy was sickening, and she couldn’t go after that.
Very interesting Vida. I remember in Sunday School having constant conflicts with the various ministers we had. I was really looking for some answers that made sense but they were just booged down in dogma that they were unable to explain.
Thank you Vida for sharing this.
Personally I have learned many things from children, having responsibility for them in the past and not wanting to harm them. I remember being shocked when they, for example, were seeing in me, e.g. anxious and anger and asking me why, although outside I was so calm and polite. I hadn’t noticed until then and it was very well hidden. And how I had to put my mind’s program aside, not worrying about the result of what I had to do, and just be with them, letting them take part in it. In the end, even if things weren’t on time or perfect, I was surprised how much we had enjoined it and were very less tired and that the result was more appreciated. Mostly I was surprised and touched strongly from their smile and happiness then.
Thank you Belsebuub.
Fantastic talks, thanks for posting them Mark! That’s my kind of inspiration.
You make it straightforward, understandable and achievable.
Lately I’ve been focusing on the technique of looking out being aware of what I’m seeing, then looking within to see what is inside and eliminating any ego I see there, then looking out again being aware of what I’m seeing and being aware of that which is observing. Then coming back to that technique as often as possible which means determining to remember to do it. Unfortunately I lose it for periods of time but it is building and articles such as yours help to keep going with it and help make it all seem more possible.
Hope you are well and have what you need.